I’m Gonna Stop

I’m gonna stop hurting over how you hurt me.

Over how I hurt myself knowing you would hurt me.

I’m gonna stop beating myself up over feeling guilty.

Over feeling guilty for cutting you out.

I’m gonna stop putting you on a pedestal.

On a pedestal slowly crumbling down.

As the realization of how you treated me comes rushing in.

All the truths that kill me.

All the dishonesty I now see.

I’m gonna stop thinking you were anything close to perfect.

Perfect is a word I’ll never use again.

I’m gonna stop blaming myself for everything.

I am not a victim.

But I am not a monster.

I’m gonna start moving on.